25 September 2017

Silent tears

 It looks lovely and cute to look at; But I went through a painful process grafting this asteria on this pereskiopsis. But it was a kind of pain that went away. As the days dragged i no longer felt the pain. Theres a kind of pain that I have caused others and the guilt is a pain that is seven times more excruciating than the later. A pain that pirced the heart; a pain that lingers on; before you sleep and even when u wake; it hunts you. And tears fall; silent tears. The kind of pain that you just lift to the heavens and pray that soon it will go away.
Id rather be pricked by a cactus than cause some one to cry.

12 April 2016

Life Begins @40, mine has started

       October was my last post!?

      Im just glad Im back to posting again, and as expected since Im now jobless Id be expecting more posts from me on the coming days.

     From October up to now so much has happened.
     Things have  changed. I never thought it could be that soon.
     I just got married!
    Yes, before I turned 40, I got married.
    Resigned from work, moved to another place, the place where I call home, but then still Im far away from home. Still under adjustment period or maybe Id call it the start of the adjustment period for I know its going to be for a lifetime. Im used to have a hectic schedule and Im glad Im no longer working in a very toxic environment. But I miss working, for almost 20 years Ive been working and now Im wasting time sleeping and sleeping internet and just goofing around. 
Wew! Married life.
Im used to sleeping alone, eating lunch alone, doing grocery alone and now somebody is snoring beside me at night. Sometimes I wake up in the  middle of the night all because of husband's snore. :)
Im thankful, very thankful all the blessings and the change going my way.And I just celebrated my 40th birthday last Februray 15 with my husband and family here in Cebu. For 7 years  we celebrated our first Valentine's Day together. Why?
Its a long distance relationship, It was the first valentine's dates and the first birthday with him. It was a birthday to remember. Im used to receiving birthday cards and valentines card and it was my first time that I had that very special day.
Life begins at 40, its a whole new beginning, a whole new chapter of my life. 
God has always been there every step of the way, ups and downs, tears and laughter, and through it all Im not letting go, Lord Im holding on. Im holding on to you. In this marriage You Oh Lord is the center, You are the Center of our lives. Its tough, its hard, its lonely doing it alone in this far place from home but I know Lord You will always be there as long as I cling unto You forever. Your word in my heart and in all that I do.

01 October 2015

Drawing closer and closer

Its a beautiful rainy day. My heart is yearning for more, craving for more of you Oh Lord.
Its my desire, Oh Lord, to draw near to You. Moment by moment.
Drawing closer and closer, through Your word,
Through the Holy Spirit, for to will and to act is not mine but Yours.
A giddy feeling, i'm falling in love with You Oh Lord.
I love you Lord.
I love you, since You loved me first.
I dont want to seek You only when I'm down,
But i long to seek You all the days of my life.

Drawing closer and closer to you
From the moment I woke up, I pray that its you I seek,
not the message on my mobile phone nor the update on my face book nor the tweet on my twitter.
Drawing closer to you as I face my subscribers, as I serve them, Lord give me patience,
Let me hear their woes and not react,
Let me take time to listen than to hurry,
Let me give quality service than quantity.
And at times I fail give me a humble heart to accept correction.

As I draw closer and closer, Lord
Let me serve with joy,
I admit that many times I frown,
But im confident that As I draw closer, Id be more smiling and accommodating.

And before I lay my head to sleep,
let Your word shield me and my heart be filled with gratitude and love of Your
faithfulness and Your goodness.

30 September 2015

Im inspired, im kilig much and Im back....

Im back, the last blog update was June 9, almost months ago.
I just cant fight this feeling any more.Im too inspired. I have to blog this.  I was never this gaga over a love team before until ALDUB you came. Lola Nidora's words of wisdom

     I never tweeted this much dont know even how to tweet and now the Alduberkads taught me how and how I became from a tweeter then turned abangers, and team replay. I never stalked this much. Ive been stalking Meng and enjoyed reading her blog, but today to my surprise, was not able to read she already exceeded here bandwidth, for sure she's been very busy the past few days. Ive been been this kilig much by any love team until ALDub came. Always bring goose bumps and kilig factor, and made me feel how lovely it is to fall in love and be inlove.

  In love with the LOrd should be my main agenda.  I also realized, I hope I could be this excited in reading God's word, also stalking God, and being kilig with God. I should always be, it should always be more than the ALDUB kilig factor. For HE is a jealous GOd and expects utmost adoration from me in all that I do. Also a reminder for all of us as fans, always remember that our relationship with God is more important than anything else. And at the end of the its between God and me, my relationship with that matters most.

09 June 2015

Waiting for Linsanity Version 2.0

Im a lin fan. Im so linlove and Im bored.  Why does time seems to drag in the basketball world.
There's still the asian tour and free agency and a lot more going on. Its still the finals season and its just boring without Lin in the limelight. Waited for linsanity 2.0 to happen but it didnt. Byron was a coach who made all he can to stop or prevent linsanity from happening in LA. He made a good job making it stressful for Lin and ending a very tiring season  for Lin. Got to wait a little more longer,  wait for the finals to finish and then free agency and I hope next season is for Lin, just for Lin. Im just one of the fans rooting for Lin and will be there to support him all the way. After the finals then free agency, I dream of a Lin-D Antoni reunion and a team that will let him play his type of game. Go Lin.
Hoping for Linsanity 2.0
Linsanity 2.0